Vivian in Pink!

2010 - A BLESSING YEAR

2010-12-31T00:59:00.008+08:00

2010年對我來說真是一個充滿上帝祝福又豐盛的一年。回想這一年發生的大小事，上帝提醒我在年初的時候，我甚至沮喪到沒有任何新年願望，無力計畫任何今年的事。但現在回顧起來，今年真是充滿盼望，上帝所賞賜的真是超過我所求所想，甚至常常問神：「為甚麼為甚麼祢要對我這麼好？我哪裡值得祢對我這麼好？」上帝的恩典真不是因為我配得；祂就是恩典就是慈愛。

與神的關係

參加onething特會，再一次被神的靈火燃燒
更深切明白末世的來臨、期待上帝的再來，新天新地的降臨
真實相信自己是上帝新婦的身分，渴慕神
內裡被聖靈大大提升和澆灌，成為敬拜主領，並在司琴及領唱上更加釋放

家庭

媽媽信主
妹妹受浸
家人在主裡更真實的相愛
媽媽在主裡釋放對我的轄治
家人健康平安

工作

上帝賞賜我多而又多的工作
每月收入超過理想的目標
上帝透過工作提升我的自信與英語能力
上帝祝福我的工作並使我的老闆和家長喜悅我
上帝應證了祂給我的話語

Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide,
do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.
For you will spread out to the right and to the left...ISAIAH 54:2-3
要擴張你帳幕之地，張大你居所的幔子，不要限止；要放長你的繩子，堅固你的橛子。因為你要向左向右開展... 以賽亞書54:2-3

For whoever has, to him more shall be given, and he will have an abundance; but whoever does not have, even what he has shall be taken away from him. Matthew 13:12
凡有的，還要加給他，教他有餘；凡沒有的，連他所有的，也要奪去。馬太福音13:12

人際

上帝賞賜我一群親愛的姊妹，讓我們學習在主裡真實相愛、彼此建造
上帝讓我能夠有很多自由的時間和姊妹們相處
學習用各人所需要的方式愛他們

個人

擁有一顆真實並恆常喜樂的心
擁有健康的身體
喜愛自己，真實面對自己的軟弱
在能力範圍內，有滿足的物質享受

Sisters' Love Forever and Ever

2010-11-28T18:30:00.004+08:00

God gives me a group of wonderful sisters, who are not just my friends and spiritual company but also my blessing and support. <3

Don't Litter, Please!

2010-11-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

The Right One's List

2010-10-23T18:48:00.005+08:00

Instead of another misunderstanding, I've dialogued with God for a bit on what I desire in my future husband. More precisely is I've asked God what kind of guy that He wants to give me. I told Him I want to know it for sure so that I can skip any one who is not the exact one, just like a sniper, being sharp and accurate.

Without the mention about outward appearances in the conversation cause God doesn't see his children in that way, he looks upon our heart, he looks upon our truth and beauty hidden inside of us. It's easy to find a guy who is good looking but it's difficult to find one who loves God and loves me with all his heart. However, I believe there is someone He has in mind for me, so I has given in His sight, trying to see the beauty inside an individual especially focus on holiness.

Below was what I've come up these days,

Adores God, and sees living God's words as the primary goal in his life
Loves Church and loves people as Christ does
Joyful, believes God in hope and faith
Knows and seeks God's will, obeying God's will
Founds me and supports me in God's words and loves me as Jesus
Fruits by Holy Spirit
Enjoys worship and has inspiration for music or art

This is just the first step to got the right one's list, I'll keep discussing with Him before "the man" appears.

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沒錯！就是他

為了避免再一次錯誤的領受，我和神在「我希望的丈夫的樣式」上展開了一小段對話，更確切的說是我問神祂想要給我怎麼樣的丈夫。我跟神說，我想要在這件事上很清楚知道祢的心意好教我可以很快的略過那錯誤的。就像狙擊手一般銳利而精準。

我們在對話中並沒有提及任何關於外在條件的事，因為上帝不是那樣看祂的孩子們的，上帝是鑒察我們內心並鑒察我們內裡的真實和美麗的。要找到一個擁有好看外表的男孩很簡單，但是要找到一個用他的全心愛神及愛我的人卻很難。不過我相信在神的心意中已經為我預備了某一個人，所以我放下自己的眼光。試著先看見內在的美好特別是屬靈的部份。

以下是我的得著：

愛慕神，並且以活出神的話語為他生命主要的目標
如同基督一般愛教會及愛人
時常喜樂，以信心和盼望相信神
明白並尋求上帝的心意，並順服神的心意
建造我、支持我用上帝的話語，並愛我如耶穌
結聖靈的果子
享受敬拜並對音樂或藝術富有靈感

領受到「他的條件」只是第一步，我會繼續和上帝的對話，直到「那個人」出現為止。

Becoming A Worship Leader

2010-10-21T02:03:00.009+08:00

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Last Saturday was my first time being a formal worship leader. If you know me personally you would say, "I cannot believe it!" But that is what God's talent, changing impossible into possible. I have been a vocal and a pianist of church worship band several years, I do like to worship God and I do enjoy servicing LORD and people through music, but I've never thought I will be a worship leader.

Two years ago I attended God's Power Conference, In the teaching Pastor Jaeson Ma asked everyone who was there practiced to pray and prophesy for someone that you didn't know him or her at all before. There was a girl same as my age prayed for me, after she prayed she asked me, "can you play the piano?" I said, "yes." "I saw you were leading worship by playing the piano in my prayer. I think God wants you service people and him through music and your voice." said she. "really? wow~that's...that's too great!" replied me. Actually the voice inside me was "leading worship by playing the piano, ah? are you kidding me?" I didn't take it for serious and I left the prayer all behind soon.

One day in this year, the director of church band asked me, "Vivian, would you wanna try to be the worship leader from next season?" "No! No way!! It doesn't lack for worship leader. you know me, I can't do that, standing on the stage is as difficult as climbing Mount Everest to me." the director was gentle and respected to my will, she didn't force me.
A few months later after that conversation between the director and me, one evening she called me, "Vivian, I have a good news to tell you but this time you cannot say no, cause every leader is going to the ministration we need someone to lead the worship and there is no other one but you." What can I say? After that, when I prepared for the help, God was injecting me with recalling the girl's prayer however I told to him, "yes, I am going to lead the worship but just once for help." You think God will give up so easily? Absolutely not! In those few days he become the prayer more and more clear in my mind and transferred the prayer to a persuasion as someone who keep hypnotizing me, "Vivian, you are going to be the worship leader not just this time but regularly." Finally, I surrendered to him and said, "Fine, if that is your will I'll obey it but I won't go to tell the director, you let her come to tell me."

This September in the church band meeting I saw my name in the column of leader on the duty schedule, that was God's answer. When I was standing on the stage last Saturday, there was no fear but peace and joyful. I realized that was God's power and his love inside of me, I really enjoyed the time. A worship leader is the new position what God gives me, in this position God gives me three assignments,

True worship
Wash my teammates' feet
Know what is the worship that bro and sis want

成為一個敬拜主領

上星期六是我第一次成為正式的敬拜主領。如果你認識我的話你一定會說：「這怎麼可能？」但這就是上帝的專長--化不可能為可能。我在敬拜團中擔任司琴和領唱很多年，我很享受敬拜上帝也很喜歡用音樂服事神和人，但我從來沒有想過自己有一天會成為一個敬拜主領。

兩年前我參加了「神大能特會」，在教導中Jaeson Ma 牧師要求在場的每一位操練預言性的禱告，他要我們去為一位完全不認識的人禱告並試著看見異象預言。那時有一個跟我差不多年紀的女孩為我禱告，禱告完後她問我：「妳會彈鋼琴嗎？」我說：「會」「我在禱告中看見妳一邊彈琴一邊領敬拜，我想上帝想要妳透過音樂和妳的歌聲服事祂和人」她說，我回答她：「真的嗎？喔...那真是太好了！」其實在我心裡真實的聲音是：「一邊彈琴一邊領敬拜？妳開甚麼玩笑？」我並沒有把那個禱告當真，很快的那個禱告就被我拋到外太空去了。

今年中的某一天，姵吟問我：「妳要不要試試看從下季開始當主領？」我說：「才不要！我們又沒有缺主領，妳又不是不知道我，站在台上簡直就是要我死嘛，我才不要！」姵吟很禮貌還是尊重了我的決定並沒有強迫我。
在那對話的幾個月之後的某一天下午，她打電話來：「我有一個好消息要跟妳說，但是這次妳不能說不。因為所有的主領都去短宣了，我們需要有人幫助我們帶敬拜，沒有別人了只剩下妳。」我能說甚麼呢？在那之後，當我正在為「幫忙帶敬拜」這件事作準備的時候，上帝使我想起了那個女孩的禱告，但我告訴上帝：「對！我是會帶敬拜，不過就只有這次是為了幫忙！」你以為這樣就可以打發上帝？哈哈！當然不是！在那幾天中，上帝使那個禱告在我的腦子裡愈來愈清晰並且轉化它成為一個信念就好像是有人不斷在催眠我一樣：「妳要帶領敬拜，不是只有這一次而是常態性的。」最後我只好投降了，我跟神說：「好！如果那是祢的心意，我會順服。但我不會去跟姵吟說，祢讓她自己來跟我說。」

九月敬拜團會的時候，我看見自己的名字被放在服事輪值表主領的欄位上，這就是上帝的答案。上星期六當我站在講台上時完全沒有懼怕，只有喜樂和平安。我知道是上帝的能力和愛在我的裡面。敬拜主領是上帝給我的一個新的職分，在這職分上上帝給我三件功課:

真實的敬拜
為團員洗腳
知道什麼是弟兄姊妹需要的敬拜

Treasures In Heaven

2010-10-18T11:57:00.004+08:00

They will say, "The fruit you longed for is gone from you. All your riches and splendor have vanished, never to be recovered." REV. 18:14

In one hour such great wealth has been brought to ruin! REV. 18:17

Dear LORD,
   Here I am, asking you teach me, reminding me everyday, "Do not store up for myself treasure on earth but store up myself treasures in heaven. For where my treasure is, there my heart will be also." No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other one, or he will be devoted to the one and despite the other. We cannot serve both God and Money.
   You are the only satisfaction, you are greater than any material thing, teach me and give me the wisdom from heaven to manage every cent that you give me, teaching me offer people and my church more and more cause all I gain is from you. Teach me do not long for riches and splendor but long for you, since you are who gives me the ability to produce wealth. Thank you.

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積財寶在天上

巴比倫哪，你所貪愛的果子離開了你！你一切的珍饌美味和華美的物件也從你中間毀滅，決不能再見了！啓示錄 18:14

一時之間，這麼大的富厚就歸於無有了！啓示錄 18:17

親愛的上帝：
我在這裡，懇求祢每一天教導我、提醒我: 「不要為自己積財寶在地上，只要積財寶在天上。因為我的財寶在哪，我的心也在那裡。」一個人不能侍奉兩個主。不是惡這個愛那個，就是重這個輕那個。我不能又侍奉神，又侍奉瑪門（財利）。
祢是唯一的滿足，祢大過一切的物質。教導我並給與我屬天的智慧管理每一分祢賞賜給我的錢財，教導我更多的為人和教會奉獻，因為所有我所得的都是來自於祢。教導我不要貪戀財富和華美，單單愛慕祢，因為祢是賞賜我得貨財力量的那一位。謝謝祢。

Black Sandals & White Sandals

2010-10-12T14:21:00.008+08:00

These two sandals are the presents from my dear LORD this summer. I got it a couple weeks ago and God inspired me share this story.

Firstly, I have to say that I was not a good servant at managing money so I have some credit card debts to meet at the present and therefore, I've tried to control my desire.

Before buying these sandals, I went everywhere with my flip flops this summer cause it needs to stand for a long time when teaching and my feet always have serious edema, it's too difficult to wore shoes in summer to me. Although my flip flops seem too old to wear, my mom and some of my friends advised me buying a pair of sandals, I thought I cannot spend money easily and I must can do without it.
One day, as usual I went out with my old flip flops, without noticed the puddle I slipped and sprained my arm. For safety, I started to think over should I buy new sandals？"God, should I buy new sandals?" asked me.
After that, one evening I went to a shopping mall with my sis and my mom, then we saw one pair of lovely sandals we both love it and there was just left only one pair for our size, when seeing the price and considering it was really suitable to my sis I gave way to her. The sandals looked so adorable on my sis feet.
The next day, I went to the same shopping mall with Mom to deal something. While hanging there I asked to God, "Do you want me buy a pair of new sandals or you think that is unnecessary to me?" At the same time, God led me to a brand of shoes what I love and I have seen it in different branches several times, but there was no branch at this shopping mall in my memory, it was so exciting. I noticed the white one in my pic in the clearance area, and the size was just right! You know, it's really incredible to me cause my feet are too small to find the shoes are "just right" to me. Moreover, when seeing the price I was sure that is "the" one sandals that God wants me buy.
You think that was God's mercy? Not only that. There were two colors for choice, black and white, those are all easy to fit my clothes but I needed to decide one of them. When I was in the dilemma, God's mercy came to me through my mom once again. She said, "Why don't you buy all of them?" "No, it takes double!" said me. Guess what? In that time, the saleswoman told me that if I buy them all I can get more discount. Ha ha ha, as the picture you've seen I purchased them all.

I was so so so so cheerful, I've bought so many things in my life. some of them are more and more expensive than these two sandals, however I've never been so joyful and cheerful before. It's difficult to describe, just like these two pairs of sandals were only left for me.
They are the presents from my dear LORD. Thank you Jesus! :)

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黑涼鞋和白涼鞋

這兩雙涼鞋是今年夏天上帝送我的禮物。幾個星期前我得到它們而上帝感動我分享這個故事。
首先，我必須承認我在管理金錢這件事上並不是一位好管家，以至於現階段的我有一些卡債必須償還，我試著控制我的慾望。

在買這兩雙涼鞋之前，我穿著我的夾腳拖鞋到處跑，因為教書必須要長時間的站著而我的腳總是會腫脹，所以在夏天穿鞋子對我來說是一件很痛苦的事。雖然我的夾腳拖鞋看起來已經破舊磨損，媽媽和一些朋友也建議我應該要去買一雙涼鞋，但我想我不應該輕易花錢並且我應該可以穿著我的拖鞋將就過這個夏天。
有一天我又像往常一樣穿著我的舊拖鞋出去，因為沒有注意到水灘我滑了一跤扭傷了我的手臂。為了安全，我開始仔細思考我是不是真的應該買一雙涼鞋，我問神：我是不是該買一雙涼鞋？
在那之後的一個下午，我和姊姊、妹妹、媽媽一起去逛街。我和姊姊看上了同一雙很可愛的涼鞋，而且它只剩下一雙是我們的尺寸。但是當看到價錢和考慮到那雙鞋真的很適合姊姊之後，我決定讓姊姊買那雙鞋。那鞋穿在姊姊腳上真的非常好看！
隔天因為要處理一些事，我和媽媽又去了同樣一家百貨公司。在裡面晃來晃去的時候，我問神：「祢想要讓我買涼鞋嗎？還是祢覺得我不需要？」就在那個時候，神帶我到一家我很愛的鞋牌子的前面，我在不同地方都看過這個牌子很多次，但在我的記憶裡這個百貨公司並沒有這個牌子啊?!這真是太令人興奮！我注意到在出清區裡相片中的那雙白色涼鞋，而它的尺寸對我來說剛剛好，對我來說這真是太神奇了！因為我的腳太小，要找到一雙剛好合腳的鞋總是一件難事。而且，當我看到鞋子的價錢時，我非常確定這就是上帝要給我的「那雙」涼鞋。
你以為這就是上帝的恩典嗎？不只如此！這雙鞋有兩個顏色可以選擇：黑和白。兩個顏色對我的衣服來說都很好搭配但我必須從中選出一雙。當我陷入兩難的時候，上帝的恩典又透過媽媽的口臨到我，她說：「妳為甚麼不兩雙都買？」我說：「不！這樣要兩倍的錢耶！」結果你猜？專櫃小姐這個時候告訴我，如果買兩雙的話她願意給我更多折扣。哈哈哈，就像在照片裡的一樣，我買了它們。

我非常非常非常開心，在我的生命中我買過太多東西。當中有很多都比這兩雙涼鞋貴了很多很多，但我從來沒有這麼喜樂和開心過。這真的很難形容，就好像這兩雙涼鞋是專為我留的一樣。
它們是上帝給我的禮物，謝謝祢耶穌！:)

The Bad Mood - Telling A Story to My Kids

2010-10-11T20:45:00.007+08:00

Wow, I haven't blogged about my English Class for a while. There has been soooo many new developments and stories in my life lately which I want to share, but instead of trying to climb Mount Everest in one day and spending all night in front of my Mac, I decided to share this first.

Telling Story to children is one of my favorite things in my English class, especially for younger kids. When opening the book, it weaves a spell over them, you can see every kids' eyes just like the puppy-dogs, no exception. Hahha, that's the reason why I like to do that cause that makes me like a mighty magician.

I told this story, "The Bad Mood" about two weeks ago.

Badger who is the character in this story, he got up one morning on the wrong side of the bed. "Humph!" he said to himself. "Maybe I'd better stay at home." But then he reconsidered. What was the point of being in a bad mood if nobody noticed? So he headed out the door, slamming it loudly behind him. By the end of the day, Badger had managed to spread his bad mood far and wide, until he finally felt better. But now how he is going to cheer his friends up?

This story, illustrated with cheery and lovely paintings, teaches a worthwhile lesson--Do not vent your anger on somebody. It seems also an important lesson to adults. :)

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壞心情 -- 說故事給孩子聽

哇～已經好久沒有寫關於英文課的文章了。最近生活裡有太多成長和故事想要分享。但是為了不要一次就登上高峰以及花一整晚的時間在我的Mac前面，我決定先分享這個。

說故事給小孩們聽是我在英文課裡最喜歡做的其中一件事，特別是對小小孩。當打開故事書的時候就像對他們施了魔法一般，你可以看到每一個孩子的眼睛都像是小小狗一樣，沒有例外。哈哈！所以我喜歡做這件事，因為它讓我好像一個偉大的魔術師。

兩星期前我和小孩們說了這個「壞心情」的故事。

Badger--故事裡的主角。有一天早上睡醒的時候心情很差。「哼！」他對自己說。然後他說「今天我最好是待在家裡。」但想一想之後他又說「如果都沒有人知道我心情不好那有什麼意義呢？」所以他就帶著壞心情出門，把門重重的甩在身後。一直到晚上，他的心情終於變好了，但這個時候他卻要想辦法讓他的朋友們心情變好。

這個故事的插圖很可愛而且很活潑。並且教導孩子一個很重要的課題--不要遷怒於他人。這對我們這些大人們來說也是一個很重要的課題。:)

The Best Ice Chocolate In The World

2010-10-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

yum~:)

Ice Chocolate has become my favorite drink recently.
I've drunk it in the different branches of Starbucks several times but there is no one can compare with what my sis makes for me.
It's the best ice chocolate in all Starbucks and it's the best ice chocolate in the world! Once you drink it, you'll crave it every day!

冰巧克力是我近日的最愛。我喝過幾次不同家星巴克做的，但是都沒有一家可以跟我妹做的相比。這是全星巴克裡最棒的冰巧克力也是全世界最棒的冰巧克力。一旦你喝了，你就會每天都想要喝到它。

Only Call On Jesus

2010-10-04T20:53:00.007+08:00

One of my love song! :)

I only call on Jesus
He carries me through my worst storm
I only count on Jesus
I'm leaning on His everlasting arm
I have a testimony bout Jesus
He carries me through my worst storm
I only count on Jesus
I'm leaning on His everlasting arm
Let me tell you that I'm leaning
And I'm trusting him
I'll sit and I'll wait
The Lord he's right there for me
Never too late
Boy when it feels like I'm level
Level to the ground
He lifts me right up all my blessings come down
That's why I call him

[Chorus]
Yes he's a way maker when I'm sick I can fall
On my knees and I'll pray
The Lord turned my midnights
To a brighter day
Oh it's a blessed assurance
In You when I call
Wonderful counselor
My all and all
[Chorus]
All right
Somebody may be going through something out there
You see in order for you to have a testimony
You gotta go through some tests and some trials
To make you strong
[Chorus]

alright

Not by might nor by power, but by your Spirit

2010-09-28T12:17:00.009+08:00

best part of the day

Last night before sleep, I was in the room prayed to God. After intercession Holy Spirit led me to pray for myself. In that time I asked God what is the purpose that he made me for? If teaching English is exact his calling, what is his will on this? What does he want me do in the class? What is his will about my marriage? What about study abroad? What is the blueprint of my life? I was eager to know the answers but Holy Spirit just surrounded me in peace then made me sleep.
This morning Holy Spirit revealed a verse to me through the program on Good TV.

"Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit," says the LORD Almighty --ZECHARIAH 4:6

All of sudden God turned on the light in my heart, then I began a conversation with him.
Me: Why this verse?
God: Hmm...First, I want you answer me, 'Why do you want to
   study abroad?'
Me: Well, I love to study English and I think I need to improve
   my English.
God: Why do you need to improve your English?
Me: I don't know. I just think my English is not good enough to
   be an English teacher. I've thought it will make me have
   more confidence if I study abroad then get a diploma or a
   certificate and of course people would think that I have
   qualification to teach.
God: Do you remember who gave you this job?
Me: you.
God: So, Why should I call you if I think you are unable to do
   this? And think about your new jobs... Did those
   supervisors ask you any thing about the diploma or
   certificate?
Me: No.
God: Remember, You Are My Daughter and you are sent by me.
   People might need those but not you cause you already
   have me, You are good enough to do this cause I called you
   and my power which from heaven is inside you.

Once again, God answered my long-term confusion in my subconscious in an unexpected way with his mercy and love. God lets me know that maybe one day he will sent me out but not because getting any diploma or certification that's because he has some other wonderful plan toward me.

About the story of God's calling, go check About Me !

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不是倚靠勢力，不是倚靠才能，乃是倚靠祢的名

昨天晚上睡覺前，我在房間裡禱告。在為人代禱之後，聖靈引導我為自己禱告。我開始問神，祂造我的目的是甚麼？如果教英文真的是祂的呼召，那祂的心意是甚麼？祂要我在課堂上做些甚麼？至於我的婚姻呢？出國讀書呢？祂為我設計的生命藍圖又是甚麼？當下我很心急想要知道這些問題的答案，但是聖靈單單只用平安環繞我，使我睡去。

今天早上，聖靈透過在Good TV的一個節目向我顯現一段經文。

不是倚靠勢力，不是倚靠才能，乃是倚靠我的靈方能成事。撒迦利亞書4:6

突然間上帝光照我，我開始與祂有一段對話。
我：為甚麼是這節經文？
神：我想要妳先回答我，為甚麼妳想要出國讀書？
我：恩...因為我很喜歡英文，我也想要讓我的英文進步。
神：為甚麼英文要進步？
我：我不知道...因為我就是覺得我的英文沒有好到可以當英文老師。如果我可以出
   國讀書，我的英文可以進步，我也可以更有信心。拿到了一些證照也可以讓別
   人知道我是有資格教英文的。
神：那妳記得是誰要教英文的嗎？
我：祢。
神：那妳想如果我覺得妳不行，我為甚麼要呼召妳？
   妳今年接到的這些新工作，那些老闆們有跟妳要求任何關於認證或學位的事
   嗎？
我：沒有。
神：妳要記住，妳是我的孩子是我差派妳去做這事。也許世人需要那些東西但妳不
   需要，因為妳已經有了我。妳有資格做這事因為我呼召了妳，而我的力量在你
   的裡面，那是從屬天而來的力量。

再一次，上帝用祂的慈愛在沒有預期之下回應了長久以來在我潛意識裡的困惑。上帝讓我知道，也許有一天我會出國讀書但那不是因為任何的證書或學位證明，而是因為祂在我的生命有另一項美好的計畫。

關於上帝對我呼召的故事，可以看About Me !

You've Called Me As Your Bride

2010-09-27T00:21:00.023+08:00

I planned to write a little note to my Abba since my sis Peiyin is going to Jerusalem next Tue.. She said that she can help me to put my little note into the hole of The Crying Wall.
I was lying on the bed and thinking about what should I write for Him--such a mighty, mercy, graceful and truthful man. In the meanwhile, God downloaded a passage of verse into my mind, it was the words he gave me while I sought him for my relationship. When turned to the paragraph and read it I almost cried my eyes out. Suddenly, I understand what did Lord try to tell me in that time.

Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more reproach of your widowhood. For your maker is your husband -- the LORD Almighty is his name -- the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth. The LORD will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit -- a wife who married young, only be rejected," says your God. ISAIAH 54:4-6

Using a marvelous and unexpected way God answered my bafflement and comforted me -- a complete healing. He took away my shame and took away the lie inside of me that I was disgraceful in my wrong vision and my misunderstood of the relationship. God’s called me as his wife and gave me an eternal and never be failed vision of love. He let me know he picked me when I still was a little gal, I am the one who he loves.

Thank you my Jesus,
You've called me as your bride when I was a little girl.
You've used your love surround me when I was formless.
Your my husband who never abandon me.
I'll love you with all my heart and all my soul in my entire life and get ready for your coming with my life until seeing your glory face.

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我是祢所召的妻

我想要寫一張小紙條給我的阿爸父，因為姊姊下星期二要到耶路撒冷，她說她可以幫我把給神的小紙條塞進哭牆的小洞裡。當我躺在床上想著該寫些甚麼給祂--如此偉大、憐憫、慈愛和信實的人。就在那個時候，神放下了一些經文的片段在我的心中。那是我在為我的感情尋求時，祂所給我的話語。當我翻到那段經文並讀它的的時候，幾乎要大哭出來。突然之間，我明白了那時上帝要告訴我的話。

不要懼怕，因你必不至羞愧；也不要抱愧，因你必不至受辱。你必忘記你幼年的羞愧，不再紀念你寡居的羞辱。因為造你的是你的丈夫，萬軍之耶和華是祂的名；救贖你的是以色列的聖者，祂必稱為全地之神。耶和華召你如召被離棄心中憂傷的妻，就是幼年所娶被棄的妻。以賽亞書 54:4-6

上帝用一個奇妙我未曾預見的方式回應了我的困惑並且安慰了我，完全的醫治。祂拿走了我的羞愧也拿走了那在我裡面認為自己對感情錯誤的看見和誤解的羞愧。上帝召我為祂的妻子並且給我了一個永恆、永不失敗的愛情的異象。祂讓我明白當我還是一個小女孩的時候祂就揀選了我，我是祂心中所愛的。

謝謝祢我的耶穌，
謝謝祢在我還是小女孩的時候，祢就召我為祢的妻子，
謝謝祢在我還懵懂的時候，祢就用祢的慈愛保抱我。
祢是我的丈夫，永不撇棄我。
我要盡心盡性用我的餘生愛祢，預備等候祢的再來。
直到見祢榮面。

My Girl, Won't You Please Play It For Me

2010-09-24T00:42:00.023+08:00

Loving people as love myself is a topic that I've learned it in my life. It's really a challenge to me esp. for some specific people.

Last saturday, as seeing the message for requiring transfer my duty in the worship band from vocal to keyboard player I was so upset. Actually, it was not the first time for this kind of asking, sometimes it was requested by other leaders, I always love to obey them. Even though I realized there are some preconceived ideas to this man inside of me needed to conquer and I also knew finally I would be obedient, there were still some annoying voice in my mind.

Went to the prayer meeting with this awful feeling. While seeing the leader the negative emotions became stronger than before. I even couldn't pray. I said no to Holy spirit, saying no to God. Argued with God, "I just don't want to say yes to him, it's so unfair. You know I always be willing to obey but that doesn't mean he can ask me do anything as he wanted!" "I know what is your teaching and your will and I know there is just one way to this but why?" At that time I was struggling with my emotions and feelings.

Suddenly, God used his tender love to surround me, it was warm and true, and he spoke to me, "My girl, won't you please play the keyboard for me today?" Just these simple words, he made me surrender and moved by how gentle and sensitive God is to my little heart. It totally persuaded me.

God, you are greater than everything, you are more than everything. All the everything I do is do for you in my life.

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孩子，妳可以為我彈琴嗎？

愛人要如同愛自己對我來說是一項在我生命中一直要學習的功課。某一些特定的人對我來說更是挑戰。
上星期六，在看見要求更換我敬拜團服事的訊息之後讓我相當不舒服。事實上這類的要求已經不是第一次，有的時候是其他的主領提出的，通常對於這些要求我很樂意順服。雖然我知道在我的裡面對於這個人有一些成見是我需要克服的，我也知道最後我還是會順服，但腦子裡卻一直有一些聲音。
帶著這樣的情緒去了禱告會，當我看見主領的時候心中負面的感覺比之前更來的強烈，這負面的感覺讓我甚至沒辦法開口禱告。我拒絕聖靈，也拒絕神。我和上帝爭論：「我就是不想要這樣就答應他，我覺得很不公平。祢知道我總是會順服，可是這不代表他可以依照他想要的就隨意要求。」「我也很清楚祢的教導和心意，我也知道對於這件事只有一個答案，但是為甚麼?!」我一直和我的感覺在爭戰。
突然間，上帝用祂溫柔的愛環繞我，溫暖又真實的愛。祂對我說：「孩子，妳今天可以為我彈琴嗎？」就是這幾個簡單的字，祂讓我降服並且為祂的恭謙和貼心感動。簡單的幾個字，完全的說服了我。
上帝，祢大過一切，祢勝過一切。我生命中所作的每件事都是為祢而做。

The New Jerusalem

2010-09-21T10:39:00.005+08:00

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. REVELATION 21:1-4

我又看見一個新天新地。因為先前的天地已經過去了，海也不再有了。我又看見聖城新耶路撒冷由神那裡從天而降，預備好了，就如新婦妝飾整齊，等候丈夫。我聽見有大聲音從寶座出來說：“看哪！神的帳幕在人間。祂要與人同住，他們要做祂的子民；神要親自與他們同在，做她們的神，神要擦去他們一切的眼淚。不再有死亡，也不再有悲哀、哭號、疼痛，因為以前的事都過去了。” 啓示錄 21:1-4

Love Your Neighbor as Love Yourself

2010-09-12T22:55:00.016+08:00

"Love the LORD your GOD with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. " There is no commandment greater than these. MARK 12:30-31

Dear Jesus,
   I ask you teach me how to love people as love myself, how to love em in your love, even they aren't lovely to me. I ask you teach me understand people's necessaries observantly. I ask you teach me humble myself, accepting all kinds of men.
   Change my sight in your sight; changing my heart in your heart. Change my feeling in your feeling, reminding me they're all your wonderful creation, you see they are good. Therefore, I have no right to judge any one of them and I have no right to dislike any one of them, cause you love them so much!
   Thank you LORD, you know all about me, I don't need to hide in front of you. You know my weakness, please pour down your power and your love from heaven, so that I can overcome my weakness.
   Thank you my dear LORD, I love you and I want to love you more. Make me like you, my LORD.

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愛人如己
「你要盡心、盡性、盡意、盡力愛主你的神。」其次就是說：「要愛人如己。再沒有比這兩條誡命更大的了。」馬可福音 12:30-31
親愛的主耶穌,
我懇求祢教導我如何愛人如己，如何用祢的愛愛他們，
即便他們在我的眼中不甚可愛。

我懇求祢教禱我有敏銳的觀察力能夠瞭解人們的需求。
我懇求祢教導我如何謙卑自己，接受各種的人。
祢用祢的眼光，改變我的眼光；
祢用祢的心，改變我的心；
祢用祢的感覺，改變我的感覺，
提醒我他們都是你美好的創造，祢看他們為好。
因此我沒有任何權力可以評斷或討厭任何一位，因為祢深愛他們。
謝謝祢主，
祢完全明白我，在祢面前我不須隱藏。
祢明白我的軟弱，懇求祢澆灌下屬天的愛和力量，好叫我能勝過我的軟弱。
謝謝祢我親愛的主，
我愛祢，我想要更認識祢，
求祢使我更像祢。

The Melody from Heaven

2010-09-11T23:24:00.004+08:00

I played the piano in the worship band this evening. It was so satisfying to play the piano with Holy Spirit. While I concentrated my attention on true worship, none myself, I could feel, truly feel Holy Spirit was fulfilling in that moment. He gave me the melody from heaven those I've never played before, just liked the water flew out from heaven. How glory is it? How amazing is it?

O LORD, I adore you, all I desire is playing the piano for you, singing for you like David in the rest of my life. I desire to worship you and stay in your court forever and ever.

Keep Praying For My Parents

2010-09-07T12:10:00.035+08:00

Mom watched Good TV this morning before I got up. It was so unbelievable!!!!
I know GOD's work is moving inside her, Holy Spirit is leading her.

Dear Jesus,

My dearest mama & papa
Praise your work and your love. I know you love my mom and dad, I know you also died for them.

Holy spirit I ask you pour down your love more and more to my parents, speak to them, touch them. Let them feel your peace and present, let them hear your voice.

Holy Spirit, you know what my mom need. I ask you speak to her by yourself, satisfying her by yourself, taking away her worries. Fill her your peace and your joy. Let her understand that GOD has a wonderful purpose in her life, her life is not meaningless.

Thank you LORD, I am declaring in confidence once again: You are going to take my parents' heart. They Are YOURS!! Their Life belong to You!!

In Jesus Christ name, AMEN

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繼續為我的父母禱告

早上起床的時候，發現媽媽在看Good TV, 真的很神奇！
我知道那是上帝的工作正在運行，聖靈正在帶領媽媽。

親愛的耶穌,

讚美祢的工作和祢的愛。我知道祢愛我的爸爸和媽媽，我知道祢也為他們死。聖靈我求祢澆灌更多更多的愛在他們身上，對他們說話、觸摸他們。讓他們感受到祢的平安和同在，讓他們聽見祢的聲音。聖靈祢知道媽媽的需要，我求祢親自對她說話，用祢自己來滿足她，拿走她的憂慮，用祢的平安和喜樂充滿她。讓她明白上帝在她的生命中有一個完美的旨意，她的生命不是沒有意義的。

上帝感謝祢，我再一次用信心宣告：祢要奪走爸媽的心，他們是祢的！他們的生命是屬於祢的！

奉耶穌基督的名 阿們

You Have Set Me Free

2010-09-06T12:19:00.006+08:00

Another wonderful morning. Played the piano and praised my dear Abba.

LORD, you have set me free and my joy, I can not hide.
You have crowned me, clothed me in the garments of praise.
My life is not the same...

Burger Noon, Sis Love

2010-09-04T22:42:00.024+08:00

EG my another lovely sis!
Have known her more than ten years. She's amazing, beautiful, kind and generous all the time.

Cheer up babe, Although life is struggle you have God & us. God is going to pour out his love and power to you every single day, blessing your work and everything!

I will be ur support, praying for u.
Love u my sis forever and ever! : )

Intercession

2010-09-04T12:57:00.008+08:00

Pray for People is GOD's will & grace!!
More Prayer More Power!!

不要停止在上帝面前為未信親友的代求
禱告要建立在信心、忠心、愛心之上
上帝必會垂聽；上帝必會成就

And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the LORD will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. James 5:15

Wonderful Day

2010-09-02T21:52:00.004+08:00

Went to 翡翠灣 with lovely family!
Wonderful weather, wonderful food, wonderful bro and sis.
Thank you LORD, they're all your wonderful creatures. :D

How beautiful~

seems at L.A. (check Meg's funny face)

Du, Pei and me

I Wanna Lift You Up

2010-08-31T11:39:00.002+08:00

God dropped down some words in my mind when I was praying and worshiping. He also gave me some new chords...I kept singing that again and again. Jesus, I wanna lift you up. You're worthy, you're holy.

You are worthy, our LORD and GOD, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.
REVELATION 4:11

Jesus, you are so Beautiful

2010-08-30T12:34:00.013+08:00

Jesus, you are so beautiful,

Jesus, you are the mighty one, You are so beautiful, You are... Jesus

This morning, suddenly craved to sing for GOD. Therefore, I offered my prayer to my LORD. Sang for him and played the piano for him. When I was singing, there were some simple words and chords came out in my mind. Holy Spirit was leading me, I could feel his presence was so real and so sweet in that time. I could feel that he was sitting by my side, listening carefully.

O, my Abba, you're so so so beautiful, you're glorious and mighty. There's no one can compare with you. you're my LORD, you're my life, you're my fire by night, my cloud by day, you're my every thing.You are my Jesus, my Lover.

So Good To Me

2010-08-29T20:44:00.006+08:00

by Cory Asbury

Verse

I waited patiently upon the Lord
And He inclined and heard my cry
He pulled me up out of the miry clay
He set my feet upon the Rock
He gave me beauty for ashes and joy for my mourning
And praise for heaviness
He put a new song in my mouth and a crown upon my head
He gave me life forevermore

Chorus

He’s been so good, so, so good to me;
so good, so, so good to me So good,
so, so good to me, Jesus

Post-chorus

He picked me up and
He turned me around
And He placed my feet on the solid ground
Hallelujah, hallelujah

Tag

I’ve got love, joy, peace and righteousness in the Holy Spirit

Yaeh, that's sooo true!
Abba you are so good to me!! : )

ONETHING

2010-08-29T00:28:00.018+08:00

Live As A Pioneer

Get Ready Your Heart for Jesus' Coming

Be Holy 保持情感、耳目、行為的聖潔
Fast Once A Week 每週禁食一次
Giving the Prayer Based On the Bible Two Hours A Day 每日獻上兩小時以聖經為基礎的禱告
Read REVELATION Once A Month 每月讀一次啓示錄
With Spiritual Company 相約守望

One thing I ask for the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. PSALM 27:4

Manat to Picasso

2010-08-22T15:21:00.011+08:00

美術館外的天空

晴朗的天空，有一點熱的天氣，可是完全不減開心的感覺。

好喜歡Matis, Van Gogh, 和Gauguin。喜歡他們每一幅畫上飽和的色彩。原著的震撼大過在畫冊上看到的好幾百倍。往前靠近這些畫，彷彿可以呼吸到當時的氣味和他們對繪畫的熱情。
想像他們每一天都是為繪畫而活的感覺，人生可以一直在自己喜歡的事上努力著真的是恩典。

散步去找東西吃，天氣熱的讓我誤以為現在在短宣。開心進到Subway，潛艇飽小姐心情卻好差；坐在Starbucks聊天，果蠅一直騷擾， Meg一直解嗨，但是都不影響我們的開心，就是從裡面發出一股滿滿的開心。甚麼都可以說，甚麼都不怕丟臉。然後突然發現...原來我們裡面好有默契。

感謝神！讓我擁有這麼多...擁有好教會、好家人、好姊妹、好工作。讓我不用刻意做些甚麼，不用假裝成甚麼樣子。開心的時候可以吱吱叫、累的時候可以偷偷放空。不用多想，不用擔心別人怎麼理解我。這就是愛！

愛裡沒有懼怕；愛既完全，就把懼怕除去。約翰一書 4:18

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear... 1 JOHN 4:18

Vivian, Go!

2010-08-03T22:43:00.010+08:00

I hurt my finger twice in one week

Enlarge the place of your tent,

stretch your tent curtains wide,

do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.
For you will spread out to the right and to the left...ISAIAH 54:2-3

要擴張你帳幕之地，張大你居所的幔子，不要限止；要放長你的繩子，堅固你的橛子。因為你要向左向右開展... 以賽亞書54:2-3

Cause u love me

2010-08-03T12:00:00.004+08:00

Suddenly, i crush on this song...
keep listening n keep singing it...
cause u love me...
all the you in lyrics are Jesus to me : )

Dearest Jesus

2010-07-31T01:39:00.001+08:00

其實這已經不是我第一次帶敬拜。在東北宣教的時候，四百人的大教會，我硬著頭皮上陣帶婆婆媽媽敬拜。最好笑的是，因為情資錯誤，我還帶了她們唱英文歌。當時只覺得很昏沈，稀哩呼嚕就帶完了三首歌。
星期六主領敬拜，出奇的不緊張。因為是很熟悉的家，很熟悉的講台，很令我安心的好姊妹還有好弟兄。當燈一關的時候，我很清楚耶穌就在我身邊。因為經上說：當兩三個人奉祂名聚集的時候，祂就與他們同在。所以唱的好不好、說的好不好，都不是人來定義的了。因為敬拜是為了耶穌...耶穌喜歡就勝過一切。
當我一直輕輕叫著耶穌的時候，一次又一次甜蜜就愈來愈充滿；一次又一次更真實感受到耶穌的愛。

親愛的耶穌

謝謝祢愛我

謝謝祢在我生命中為我作成的一切

謝謝祢在十字架上為我所流的血

謝謝祢因為愛我為我捨命

謝謝祢為我所受的鞭傷和羞辱

謝謝祢在我認識祢以前就先愛了我

謝謝祢一直陪伴著我不論我經歷的是高山或低谷

謝謝祢總是憐憫我的軟弱

有的時候我因為太過安逸就忘記了祢的愛

有的時候因為太過軟弱就忘記了祢的陪伴

但是祢從來都不曾離開

求祢幫助我讓我學習愛祢

讓我知道什麼是一日比一日更愛祢

每時愛祢分秒愛祢呼吸愛祢

一生愛祢

A Lovely Gal Drew Me A Flower

2010-06-23T22:00:00.010+08:00

adorable, i like it! : )

J.O.Y.

2010-06-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

為了一個星期三兩小時的文法課，我掙扎了好久。不知道為甚麼，我就是提不起賺錢的勁，心裡怎麼就是不願意多接這兩小時的課。雖然我知道老闆很喜歡我，而且她好像真的很需要我。
我一直為自己的「不想」找好多的理由，我需要讀書的時間、我需要備課的時間、我需要休息、我需要和小組長一起禱告的時間，我覺得我的需要應該被理解，所以我拒絕了老闆，然後我們不歡而散。
星期六晚上師母的講道其實就已經讓我在反省自己應不應該要退讓...但是我暫時還是沒辦法，也有點因為老闆落下的狠話賭氣。心想：算了！反正都已經拒絕了！就這樣！

今天早上讀經的時候，這件事一直在我腦中盤懸...有一種被轄制的感覺。我一直在想，如果拒絕真的是我想要的或是神同意的，那為甚麼我沒有一種如釋重負的感覺？我一直在想我是不是那個第三個僕人，把主人給的一錠銀子緊緊的握在手巾裡，卻不知道應該要把主人所給的付出經營？如果上帝就是要我把這段時間給出去，把祂所賞賜我教英文的恩賜給出去，難道我還要一直堅持我的需要嗎？我看著我的schedule，心裡一直想一直調適自己，多出這兩小時的課加上備課的時間，我的作息會變成怎樣？討上帝喜悅的做法又是甚麼？

我想起很久以前牧師說喜樂的方法很簡單，就是把生命裡事情的次序搞清楚：Jesus-Others-Yourself，我想我要考試神知道，我需要讀書的時間神知道，我需要備課的時間神一定也知道，但祂一定更希望我看重別人的需要大過自己的，我相信上帝會在這些需要上加添我更多的能力，我應該要把祂所賞賜給我的拿去賺取，so...I surrendered。

凡有的，還要加給他，教他有餘；凡沒有的，連他所有的，也要奪去。馬太福音13:12

For whoever has, to him more shall be given, and he will have an abundance; but whoever does not have, even what he has shall be taken away from him. Matthew 13:12

I Can Snap Like a Crocodile

2010-06-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

New Open!!! My Teaching Vlog

2010-06-10T22:55:00.007+08:00

My teaching Vlog “Vivian in Pink!” opens!!

You can go subscribe it or check the tag on the top.

: )

The Caterpillar Race

2010-06-10T22:45:00.001+08:00

Holy Spirit Rain Down

2010-06-10T11:09:00.018+08:00

Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down

Oh Comforter and Friend

How we need Your touch again

Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down

Let Your power fall

Let Your voice be heard

Come and change our hearts

As we stand on Your word

Holy Spirit, rain down

No eye has seen, no ear has heard

No mind can know what God has in store

So open up heaven, open it wide

Over Your church and over our lives

praise the LORD! : )

I can do everything through him who gives me strength. PHILIPPIANS 4:13

A Caterpillar

2010-06-09T23:05:00.029+08:00

這個月JOY A的主題是 Little Animals, 孩子們學ladybugs, caterpillars, dragon flies...一些昆蟲。上星期也學了很可愛的 A Caterpillar chant, 我們一邊念一邊學毛毛蟲在地上sprawl,看誰可以爬最慢。今天我教他們做一隻自己的caterpillar。小朋友都覺得很有趣又可愛喔！: )

enjoy it! : )

Be not afraid

2010-06-01T22:47:00.005+08:00

Surely he has done great things.
Be not afraid, O land;
be glad and rejoice.
Surely the LORD has done great things. Joel 2:21

A Little Bunny [part 2]

2010-05-31T18:36:00.024+08:00

今天Ducky班複習了上次的 A Little Bunny Chant,這次不玩跳格子，改教他們比手勢，一樣玩得很開心！

復習完後每個人都來畫一隻自己的Little Bunny，一邊畫別忘了也一邊放CD，讓孩子把chant記下來，當孩子完成時要大力的稱讚“wow~your little bunny is so beautiful!" 幫助他們記憶起little bunny。

大家來看看我們畫的Bunny是不是很可愛啊？ : )

Bunny's Coloring Paper ->

關於A little Bunny Chant

-> A Little Bunny

Start With Joel

2010-05-30T18:37:00.007+08:00

Hear this, you elder;
listen, all who live in the land.
Has anything like this ever happened in your days or in the days of your forefathers?
Tell it to your children,
and let your children tell it to their children,
and their children to the next generation. Joel 1:1-3

今天開始新的讀經進度，想要可以好好的跟上。

每一天在預備工作和讀書之前，都先讀神的話。沒有特別想要尋求的事，只求每一天都能緊緊抓住神。

Family Time @ Dazzling

2010-05-27T01:06:00.003+08:00

蜜糖土司

還好沒有因大雨而取消。等待很久，所以格外興奮。開心的感覺讓心中的芭蕾舞女孩已經轉了十來個圈圈。

因為覺得很好吃，所以好想帶愛的媽媽們來吃，覺得她們一定會好喜歡。和愛的人一起享受美食，是生命裡最享受的一件事。看著你們說好吃，就覺得更好吃。

Lovely Sisters... Meg, Vivian, Peiyin

今天妳也好開心，好喜歡這一系列的照片，因為妳說不是美醜，是因為心裡真實的開心。

這兩天聽妳的聲音覺得特別溫暖，讓我發現在我心底好深好深的地方，好愛好愛妳。想起以前很多陪伴的時光，那些場景和對話好像就在眼前，又好像模糊說不出來。

時間和空間漸漸改變，我已經不是那無助的小羊，但是姊妹和家人的情誼永遠不會改變。

感謝神創造美食，

感謝神創造我愛的人，

感謝神創造我的每一天。

Thank you LORD... : )

A Simple Heart

2010-05-27T01:05:00.001+08:00

Israel said to Joseph, “I never expected to see your face again, and now God has allowed me to see your children too," Genesis 48:11

I'm trying to read the Bible again, I don't expect to gain anything from it, I just read it with a simple heart. ❤

A Little Bunny

2010-05-26T23:48:00.005+08:00

今天Ducky班學了一個很簡單又可愛的chant。

我畫了一個跳房子的圖和一棵樹在地上，每一個孩子都是一隻Little Bunny，讓孩子在樹的地方預備，用手比出bunny ears，念到1, 2, 3的時候，孩子就要跳到對的數字格子上，孩子們玩得很開心。It's adorable... : )

p.s. 可以搭配bunny crafts，帶孩子做簡易的bunny ears帶在頭上，超級可愛！

Suitable Age, 3+

愛不釋手 Sticky Ball

2010-05-25T01:19:00.009+08:00

找了好久的sticky ball,原來是在十元商店才有賣。
今天就帶著它們到kangaroo上課。孩子們以前沒有看過這種球，特別是其中一顆丟了還會發光，每一個人的眼睛都瞪的好大。

JOY A 班的新進度是 on, under, in，搭配手勢和實際演練教完了發音，我拿出有圖解的flash card，準備讓孩子分組競賽。我一邊講解... “so, if you hear I say on you need to toss your ball to the correct picture which represents on...” 然後示範把球丟到代表on的圖卡，完成後轉身看著孩子，只看見每一個人睜著大眼睛看著閃閃發光的球傻住了！

“Do you understand?” ........沒有人回應...這狀況實在太好笑了！

好不容易，他們回過神來，開始玩遊戲輪到 Andre和Mason時，我說 “ under, under, ready...go！” Andre緊緊抓著球不放...同組的孩子以為他聽不懂一直不停的告訴他under在哪裡，但是他怎樣也不肯把球丟出去。遊戲只好暫停。

“Andre, what's wrong?” Andre緊抓著球搖搖頭

“Don't you understand that?” Andre緊抓著球搖搖頭

“Don't you want to play this game?” Andre 還是緊抓著球搖搖頭

最後他終於說話了...

“Teacher, 這個球好酷喔～我想要這顆球...."

JOY B 和 Ducky 兩個班也對這個新玩意充滿興趣，只要有機會拿到，不管丟對或丟錯，有沒有得分，通通笑嘻嘻！不時還發出 “wow~好酷喔！” 的驚歎。

想不到小小一顆sticky ball居然可以讓孩子們如此愛不釋手！ : )

重新改版

2010-05-23T20:02:00.005+08:00

醒來的時候，已經是中午快一點了...窗外下著大雨，
雨滴打在遮雨棚上，發出的聲音讓我聽不見其他的聲響..
昨天幾點睡著的不知道，打開電腦紐西蘭的時間已經是下午四點多了...
所以袁寶已經到很久了...時間和距離讓一切感覺好不真實。

一直想要用文字紀錄我的工作，
一直想要可以寫日記，
一直想要可以讀經和禱告...或是沒有真的很想...
一直想要開始認真讀ielts
卻一直沒辦法...心裡有一個地方像是被卡住了，但我不說不出原因..
很久很久，唯一有力氣可以做好的事就是教課，
可怕的是：這麼久好像也可以過的很開心，然後我漸漸懷疑人是不是真的需要神？

這一個星期，情緒突然很低落...
除了被離別的感傷佔據之外，心中一直被卡住的感覺好像突然一一浮現出來...
一直想不透那個夢，
一直想不透看到的經文，
一直想不透如果上帝的安排不是這樣，那為甚麼要這樣耍我？
一直想不透是哪裡有問題？
一直想不透以前我不是也是這樣領受的嗎？
一直想不透為甚麼上帝要在我最想最想的事上開我玩笑？
一直在想是不是我應該要順服，就算不是念碩士也可以念？
但事實證明diploma的入學通知也不能申請到貸款，
所以根本是一步死棋...一開始就是錯的！

心裡面很多的不服氣，
因為我太明白道理是要耐心等候上帝的回應，
上帝必有祂的時候和回應，
上帝給的必會是最美的，
但是為甚麼？

昨天敬拜時，師母的禱告就像是在對我說話，
上帝必會挪走我的羞愧，
上帝一定會知道我心裡最大的期待，
上帝一定會回應，
上帝一定會實現...
然後我在台上大哭了....
因為我裡面真是覺得好羞愧，好困惑，好不公平..
我那麼那麼想，那麼那麼希望，上帝說愛我，可是卻這樣對我...
哭完就釋放了...

今天出考卷出到一半，突然想要把網誌重新整理，
我幫它做了新的版面，
想要可以重新好好寫它..
裡面好像有了力量，
我希望我可以好好開始禱告讀經和讀書...
我希望我可以再聽見神的聲音...

That book is really a page-turner

2010-05-05T01:57:00.003+08:00

今天 English Time 課堂裡的Sharing Time和孩子們分享了星期一時我買了一本英文的工具書，這本書很有趣，我一下子就看完了。 " I bought a book from Elite book shop this Monday which is so interesting and informative. That book is really a page-tuner."

page-tuner 可以形容一本書太好看，使人忍不住想要一直翻頁往下看。在現在網路發達的生活中可以延伸學習 page-clicker，用來形容引人入勝使人不斷點擊的網頁。

You Made Your Own Bed

2010-04-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

每一次上課一開始的Sharing Time，除了是問候每一位孩子的時間之外，我也會和他們分享自己生活中有趣的事，並且在我們的話題中帶進一些生活化的片語讓孩子們學習。

English Time 班上的 Tino在每次上課的sharing time中，五次有三次會告訴我...

“Teacher, I copied the text book in school today because I said some bad words again."

有一天當他又分享了在學校因為說髒話被罰抄書的事時，我笑著回答他 “Well, I think you made your own bed as you didn't control yourself." 其他的孩子對這個對話的情境留下深刻的印象，一下子就把這句話記下來了。

過了一個星期，又到了上課前的sharing time，Tino賊賊的看著我慢慢的說，“ Tea-cher, I co-pie-d the ...” 話還沒說完，全班同學異口同聲的對著他說 “Tino, you made your own bed!"

Class Rule

2010-03-20T01:01:00.003+08:00

對於國小階段的孩子，在上課的第一週都會發給他們一張Class Rule。

在這張Class Rule裡面不是告訴他們每次考試要考幾分，錯了要罰抄幾次，上課說話會扣獎卡...而是告訴他們要學習帶著喜樂、尊重、勇於嘗試、誠實和愛來到班上。

英語學習通常不是一個短時間的課程，孩子們在我的手中短則一年，長則兩三年甚至更多。這個階段的孩子要學習的不是只有英語，更重要的是幫助他們培養正向的學習態度和品格。對我來說，培養孩

子良好的品格比學好英語更重要。也因此在我的班級規則裡，我希望他們能夠學會尊重、友愛同學和老師。不要害怕犯錯，錯了要學會如何更正。以及老師永遠接納他們的差異和學習的速度也願意聆聽他們的煩惱或心情。

我對我的孩子們說：

老師不願意看見你們英語考一百分，可是當別人在分享的時候你在做自己的事。

老師也不願意看見當同學回答不出問題的時候，你用嘲笑的方式看待他。

老師不願意看見你為了要得到高分而做不誠實的事，誠實比一百分更可貴。你考五十分不代表你的價值只有五十分，你考一百分也不代表你的價值是一百分，因為你不能用這些分數計算，因為你的價值是計算不出來的。

老師更不願意看見你難過的表情，也許你一開始是難過的，
但我希望你可以帶著笑臉離開教室。

這就是我的教室規則。

Magic Stamp ＆Magic Sticker

2010-03-18T16:08:00.009+08:00

騙小孩的法寶 Part 1，讓小孩上課服服貼貼的就是它們 Magic stamps & Magic stickers!!!

小孩需要立即性的鼓勵，表現好時除了在白板上畫星星或笑臉之外，小貼紙和印章都是很有用的喔！我特別喜歡在listen & point的時候使用印章和小貼紙，只要孩子指對了就可以得到一個小小獎勵。所以一個普通的聽音

認讀練習，也可以把它變得很有趣。小朋友都會一直說 "Teacher, me...me..." 在幫它貼上貼紙或蓋印張之前不要忘了加強孩子的發音，然後給他獎勵。

改作業和學習單的時候，也可以幫孩子貼貼紙或蓋蓋章，A++和100%對孩子來說只是一個分數，但在旁邊蓋兩個章，孩子拿到時會特別開心，這也會增強孩子學習的成就感和自信心。

每一兩個月，我都會請孩子翻翻他們的text book＆work book，算算他們得了幾個章或貼紙，然後我會說如果你有30點就可以換lolipop喔！（通常每一個人都會有）這個動作會讓孩子知道，原來平常得到這些貼紙和印章，不是只是好看而已，還可以在一段累積之後換到獎品，這也會使他們上課和作作業時更加努力。

善用一些小工具，不但可以幫助孩子學習，也可以使老師上課省力許多。而且看到孩子的本子上這些花花綠綠的印章和貼紙，真是好可愛，老師自己也會有成就感喔！: )

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Demonstration @ Kangaroo

2010-03-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

Kangaroo 是新接下的一個幼稚園教學工作。在和老闆詳談過細節之後，她希望我能在正式開課之前先到幼稚園做一次示範教學，好讓孩子們熟悉新老師。不用太久的時間，約莫10~15分鐘。
短短的時間裡要教什麼能夠有教學效果又能讓孩子覺得有趣呢？當然就是唱歌啦！不用花時間準備Flash Card，只要用身體就能學習單字和唱跳，最方便的童謠就是Head, shoulder, knees and toes（頭兒肩膀膝腳趾）去之前不忘了買一些糖果準備當作獎品。

自我介紹過後，就開始將整首歌裡的單字抓出來，一個一個教。
先摸摸自己的頭，然後說Head, this is my head.
Can you say, "head" ?
Can you touch your head?
接著是 shoulders 和 knees。教完三個單字，便用Vivian Says的遊戲幫助孩子記憶。就這樣一直到教完整首歌裡的單字。
接下來就能搭配動作一句句的教唱，唱到甚麼就摸摸甚麼。大約三次的完整教唱，孩子就能朗朗上口。當孩子已經可以正確唱完整首歌後，就可以玩愈唱愈快的遊戲，特別是這首歌曲必須要從頭摸到腳趾，孩子在比快的時候會覺得有挑戰性及有趣。結束課堂前可以分組競賽，看哪一組最快又清楚的唱完。

Suitable Age, 3+

GEPT Intermediate Class

2010-02-28T17:28:00.006+08:00

起了個大早，今天是開始新工作的第一天。

預留了時間，來得及禱告，來得及打扮，來得及慢慢走，來得及吃早餐，
更來得及出些小插曲。

本來想在摩斯吃完早餐再過去，但店裡沒有讓我覺得舒適的角落，
心裡也掛念著要先把講義印出來看一下，所以就買了外帶。

地方不難找，感謝老闆亂七八糟的地圖。
因為耳聞過那裡的環境有多狹窄及不舒適，也用我的想像力想像過它的樣子，
所以看到真實的地方時，感謝主並沒有那-麼-糟！

昨天晚上我把講義mail到自己的inbox，
誰知道那裡接影印機的電腦沒有接網路，有接網路的電腦沒有接影印機。
助教借我隨身碟，讓我可以先在有網路的電腦上下載我的講義，
結果網路一直淘氣的連不上！
裡面的老師一直幫我試，把網路線拔來拔去，插來插去..看起來比我還急...
但我不急，因為我禱告過了，把今天的課交在神手中了，我知道神與我同在...
果然！網路線在第N次插上去的時候，連線了!!!

成功的下載，成功的列印，成功的上完兩小時的課。
學生很喜歡我，（晚上老闆打電話告訴我的...)
我也覺得很有趣，他們很可愛。

btw，教室裡給老師很高的講台，所以我站上去有170公分這麼高吧～
好有氣勢，我好喜歡！
中間學生叫我下去看他寫的東西，我說你拿過來給我看。
他說為甚麼？我說我不要下去，因為一下去你就發現我有多矮了！

In My Class

2010-02-28T00:07:00.001+08:00

In My Class的tag裡，是我的英語教學日誌。

因為不想要白白地讓每一堂課就這樣過去了，所以想要認真的把它們紀錄下來。

用文字、用圖片、也用影像。

班級以教材命名，目前授課的班級和學生年齡是：

Kangaroo @ kindergarten

當中分為 JOY A -- 大班 / JOY B -- 中班 / Ducky -- 小班

Happy House @ cram school

學生年齡約為中班至大班

English Time @ cram school

學生年齡約為國小五六年級

Gept Intermediate 中級英檢班 @ cram school

學生年齡約為國中至高一

只要點擊sidebar裡Archive Tag 裡的In My Class就會出現所有關於英語教學的文章。

enjoy it : )

God Is Good All The Time

2010-02-23T23:17:00.008+08:00

As my title, "God is good all the time!"
神真的很好，超乎我所求所想的好。

從二月開始正式卸下工作以來，一開始是想找個兼職的工作或家教來做，
計畫白天讀書準備tesol，晚上工作賺一點基本的生活費。
但也只是想想，沒有特別積極的在找工作...
一方面是想要好好休息一陣子，另一方面也是在想：
神是不是有要我繼續在英語教學的路上走。
如果沒有，我是不是該轉換跑道，找個其他全職的工作？
如果沒有，我是不是還有必要讀tesol?

春節中，我試著投出了一些履歷，應徵一些文字編輯的工作，
我在心裡跟神說：「祢想要我怎麼走？祢的心意是甚麼祢就做事。」

上星期六我身體不舒服一整天躺在床上，手機突然有一個陌生的來電號碼，
我不知道是誰，所以沒有接起來。對方在我的語音信箱裡留言，
希望我可以接一個教英檢的班級，並請我給他回覆。
因為身體不舒服加上我沒有教英撿的經驗，所以我沒有馬上回覆對方。
不到五分鐘，她又來電。我把電話接起來，談定了神給我的第一份工作。
星期六早上十點到十二點，中級英撿班，地點：石牌。
媽媽問我：「妳怎麼這麼幸運，躺在床上也有工作找上妳？」
我說：「因為我的神很愛我！」

星期日早上，正當我心裡在想，明天應該公司都開工了吧？
之前投的履歷該有回音了吧？又來了一通電話...
神給的第二份工作，幼稚園的約聘英語教師。
星期一二三四，每天ㄧ到一個半小時，地點：天母。

星期一我去談了這份工作，但心裡有一點點失望。
因為這是帶狀的工作，也就是說我接下它等於不可能再接任何其他正職的工作，
但是每天坐快一個小時的車到那裡，卻只工作一個多小時，投資報酬率好像有點低...
下午回到家附近的百貨公司跟媽媽一邊閒晃，一邊調適自己的心情，
我想我應該要順服，不應該那樣看事情的價值...就在那時候，又來了一通電話...
是媛媛！
她告訴我有一個補習班的老師在找英文老師，問我有沒有興趣接？
我打給對方，談定了神給的第三份工作，星期三五，各三個小時，地點：天母。
媽媽說：「妳怎麼逛個街也有工作找上妳？」
我說：「因為我的神很好，你有沒有要信信看？」

感謝神！失業不到一個月，馬上接到了三份工作。
而且月收入跟之前的一樣!! 但是工作時間只要先前的一半!!
很顯然的，神並沒有想要我做其它的工作，
祂依然要我服事小朋友。
我沒有意見，是神給的，我願意順服。

所以我們既得了不能震動的國，就當感恩，照神所喜悅的，用虔誠、敬畏的心事奉神。
-- 希伯來書12:28

Restart

2010-01-23T23:59:00.006+08:00

收到了等待好久的conditional offer,
卻是graduate diploma的,
要唸到master,要花三年和三倍的錢...
和原本預想的差了太遠!
覺得很像被開了一個大玩笑...
調適過後願意順服,相信神有祂的作為!
雖然現在既沒有學校, 也將要沒有工作,
但是沒有關係, 因為我有神!
重新尋求,重新開始!
想要念tesol,但是要去哪裡念?
Auckland 還是 L.A.?
答案在神那裡!

我的2010年在ㄧ月底開始的不算太慢....
神關上了這扇窗,ㄧ定會為我打開另ㄧ條更美的道路,
因為我是祂所珍愛的,祂必會把最好的賞賜給我...

我的心歡喜,我的靈快樂,
我的肉身也要安然居住,
因為祢必不將我的靈魂撇在陰間,
也不叫祢的聖者看見朽壞.
祢必將生命的道路指示我;
在祢面前有滿足的喜樂,
在祢的右手中有永遠的福樂.
--詩篇 16:9-11

     Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
   My body also will rest secure,
   because you will not abandon me to the grave,
   nor will you let your Holy One see decay.
   You have made known to me the path of life;
   you will fill me with joy in your presence,
   with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
   PSALM 16:9-11

VISIBLE

2009-09-08T11:22:00.013+08:00

Visible by Sunny Hu

When no one was looking
You found me
When I was trying to forget myself
You remembered me

Called me Your delight
Called me Your joy
Clothed me with Your delight
Loved these ashes ashes into beauty

You walked into my darkness
convinced me I belong in the light
You found me all numb inside
And You held me

‘til I had tears to cry….
Til I came alive

今天神說：

你不要害怕！因為我救贖了你。我曾提你的名召你，你是屬我的。你從水中經過，我必與你同在；你淌過江河，水必不漫過你；你從火中行過，必不被燒，火焰也不著在你身上。因為我是耶和華你的神，是以色列的聖者，你的救主。...因為我看你為寶為尊，又因為我愛你...不要害怕，因我與你同在。以賽亞書 43:1~5

在這世上唯有神是我的愛，是我的倚賴...

I DO ME

2009-08-03T12:26:00.030+08:00

天氣依然炎熱，晒的皮膚快要變成蜜糖色。我一向喜歡太陽，只要他不要讓我太熱！早餐吃了Bread & Soup，Croissant三明治裡的一大片的Parmesan cheese讓我好滿足，加了好多冰塊的咖啡紅茶裝在透明的杯子裡，好像特別清涼，讓我好想一杯接一杯。最近的我很開心!!也不是說以前不開心，但是自從上上星期神在敬拜中釋放我，也順便釋放了我心裡面的嗨鬼之後，整個人豁然開朗。

對！我的心裡其實住了一個「嗨鬼」，但要跟我很熟的人，才會看到他。
嗨鬼會做什麼呢？

嗨鬼會在太熱、太累、太興奮、太開心的時候，在大馬路上突然大叫。

嗨鬼會很願意給自己愛的人一個大大的擁抱或kiss。

嗨鬼會在吃東西很滿足的時候抖腳。

嗨鬼會說自己發明的外星語。

嗨鬼會對插隊的路人說：「麻煩排隊一下！」

嗨鬼會對亂丟垃圾的路人說：「哎喲～你東西掉了！」

嗨鬼會聽ipod，聽的很大聲!!

嗨鬼會跟著嗨鬼喜歡的音樂扭腰擺臀...

嗨鬼會把自己喜歡看的影片重複看十幾二十次...

嗨鬼會堅持用手洗自己全部的衣服，

嗨鬼會用墊板把衣服都折成一樣大小。

嗨鬼會在沒有吃到早餐及喝到冰紅茶的早晨不開心...

嗨鬼會一定要把指（趾）甲剪短短，搽上最喜歡的黑、紅、桃、紫指甲油。

嗨鬼會堅持自己把事情做完，不喜歡找人幫忙。

嗨鬼會偷偷在開會或很多人說話的時候放空...

嗨鬼會很直甚至是白目的把心裡真正的感覺說出來。

嗨鬼會....還有好多好多..一時想不起來

我是一個怪咖，一個活在自己世界裡的怪咖，從小到大都是一個很難在體制內的小孩...就像那天袁小姐在雜誌上發現的一篇關於geek的文章說的那種非符合主流的人，有特別的愛好，並且相當沈溺於自己的愛好中。這些愛好多半是文藝、知性、音樂、電子資訊..等。而geek的社交EQ通常不是太高。geek 所沈溺的世界，是一個有趣的新奇世界。geek比你想像中的還要浪漫，而且通常蠻有文化素養。就像愛蜜莉異想世界裡的愛蜜莉一樣。雖然是怪咖...但是神釋放我，因為祂說祂就是這樣造了我。所以我只要展現出，祂本來造我的樣子！So, I am a geek in the pink and I do me!

約會

2009-02-26T20:31:00.005+08:00

早上起了大早，一起坐在大傘下吃了麥當勞早餐，

看了10：20的電影。

出來的時候看到溫暖的太陽，好浪漫...他其實沒有那麼喜歡你，可是沒有關係！

我的寶貝傳給我的簡訊說：

Oh...babe, forgot to tell u! I really got a crush on u!

see? 哈哈哈！寶貝明天要來陪我上班，喲呼！

簡單的小事就可以讓我很滿足，有的時候很無聊的一句話也可以把我弄的咯咯笑。對我來說，跟喜歡的人一起就算是坐在路邊，只有聊天也可以很開心。

我很慶幸自己很平凡，有一群很愛我的朋友。

妳們和平凡讓我覺得幸福的很真實。